I Woke Up This Morning

I guess waking up is a good thing. Lately things seem to be going down hill. With all that has been going on around here, Jimmy is feeling depressed. After all the years of doing for people he feels that it was not worth it. We really made a mistake renting this house, but now we seem to be stuck between a rock and a hard place. Can't afford to stay, can't afford to move. Little did we know that this house would be such a money pit. We thought we were doing the right thing, imagine that! Everytime the kids came to visit when we lived in an apartment we were too crowded, so we rented a big house with a big yard. Now no-one visits. My son and step daughter always whined about not having money but they dont seem to really want to do anything about it. Pat always wanted to mow the yard for a few extra bucks, but always had something else to do. We hired someone to do it for $25 week, the Amanda crabbed that she wanted to do it. Right, she's never around. When she is she's locked away in her room or on the phone. It's hard to mow with one hand.

Funny how things work for some people. Some people always seem to have things go their way. I keep trying to encourage Jimmy not to get down on everything, but this week has been bad for him. He never seems to have time to take a vacation, cause he is the "only one" who can do somethings. There never seems to be a good time for him. Of course when you cant even get any support from the boss, what do you expect? Jimmy's feeling blue lately cause he feels that he's always the one to help out people, but favors never seem to be returned.

I keep trying to tell him that things will get better. Our luck can't always be bad, but he still feels bad. He's gotten where he doesnt care anymore. For years I was always the one who was depressed and felt like a failure. I've worked myself out of this and have been more upbeat and positive in the last few yeas. I just wish I could help him feel better. He just wont listen. I think it's time for the Higher Power to take charge...